Losing a parent is a bewildering, lonely experience. Here are the things I wish I had known before | Gaby Hinsliff

<p>There’ll be exhaustion, love tinged with occasional rage, even moments of black humour. But my mum would want me to tell you: don’t be afraid</p><p>My mother’s house looks exactly as she left it.</p><p>Two novels sit by the armchair, their pages neatly marked for boo